Just Breathe...

Recently re-inspired by the movie The Bucket List, I have decided to face my fear and share my passion for writing. I have always enjoyed writing short stories and managed to get some positive feed back along the way.
However I am not so good at spelling, grammar, and the structure behind writing. To sum it up I am very much an amateur. Please be kind : )
I wanted to share some pieces of a story I am writing. I am still working out all the kinks but hasn’t been able to put it out of my head since I started. My characters are constantly hovering around my thoughts. I try to get it out on the computer but chapter 2 becomes 3, and 4 became 6. Maybe I’m in way over my head, but all I can say is sometimes the most fun I have is when I’m drifting back to my dream world creating and shaping my characters.

Preface

Everything happens for a reason. What is meant to be will be. You hear people say those sayings all the time but until your life has some unforeseen tragedy you never really think about what those words really mean.
Jake Mclaws was not suppose to be in my future, he was never even meant to enter my life, and if things had just happened slightly different he wouldn’t be.
And as much as I feel I hate him at times, he overwhelms my every thought. Strange unwelcome feelings take over me and I am sick to my stomach. So I feel desperate to know, if everything happens for a reason what is the purpose of Jake Mclaws? This feels like some kind of torture or sick jokes being played out by the gods.
He doesn’t make this easy for me, married at 25 and hopeless to make things right. I wish I could just forget the past and invite in this strange new begging.